http://youtu.be/vhG8zC4npsE
I stumbled onto this video today, and it brought back a lot of memories for me. I LOVED the Dracula movie as I am an avid fan of anything vampire. The Twilight series is actually okay, but I think Edward is too whiny for my taste. Anyway, I loved this song in high school. I even remember taking the movie pictures from the book and drawing them. Sadly, I gave those drawings away and don't still have them. There is something about vampires that has always drawn me in. The Goth culture, too, but for some reason, as much as it calls to me, I seem to be standing on the edge of the outer court looking in. The classic love story, I think is what pulls me in. Imagine loving someone for centuries and finding them again...That kind of connection seems to elude most of us. Most of my music choices are made because 1) I think someone in the group is hot, 2) I like the beat and can dance to it, 3) I can sing it and belt it and no one will beg me to be quiet, or 4) Something about the music, voice, and sound haunt my very soul and causes my creativity to stir. This song by Annie Lennox does that for me. I haven't heard the song in ages, and now I can feel my soul creating ideas and wanting to express them. I think I am going to add this song to my growing playlist of my life.
I went to see the fireworks in BrookPark on Sunday. They were amazing. What's weird is, for the first time in a long time, I was sitting there and able to really think. As the beautiful colors sparkled and banged above me, I was able to think about how I really feel about Hubby, about what I want to do with my life, and even obsess a little about someone I might never have a chance with, but makes for good fantasies. All of this was able to come out because I was focused on the pretty colors. Both my feet fell asleep, and it took Jocy and Dad to get me off the ground. It was well worth it. I have new focus and now know where I am going.
I also went to an interview/ signup for a staffing agency. The lady explained the job she was looking at for me and it sounds perfect. It's a sit-down job, 10 hours a day, Monday through Thursday with some overtime on Fridays. It's eight an hour and in Wadsworth, which means little gas will be used up. I am hoping to get it, as I feel a need to work and gain some independence. Wish me luck!
I was also remembering back to high school. Somewhere, my parents have the tape from my senior year Spring Sing. I remember watching it a few years ago and wondering why I was in the front row. At that point, I was about 200 lbs, well on my way to DD cups, and the choreography involved swinging my arms and jumping from side to side. I am surprised I never wound up with bruises the way my boobs were swinging. I would give anything to be back at that weight and state of mind, though. Then again, back then I was severely depressed and thought high school sucked total donkey dick. My prom date was a blind date, and I only had one boyfriend throughout my school years. That only took up about 6 months out of the four years. Plus, I seem to have major GAYdar. If I want them....most likely... they are gay. <SIGH> Anyway, my posting frequency will slow down a little, as I have started up with school again.
I love you guys....you take the time to read about me and my craziness.
2 comments:
We all think about the performances we deliver in our lives. Some are onstage and are terrifying at the moment but are remembered and cherished fondly. Others are just every day. Remember that you only get one chance at this one life…if you don’t take it, you don’t deserve it.
As far as those inner monologues downing you, they seem to be your own tendencies to judge. We’d all like to think we are non-judgmental but sadly, that is so not the case. If you are a person that judges others then you will critique yourself triple harshly.
Course, that’s just my opinion. And it really shouldn’t count.
I guess my humor is lost on you.
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